Today, the group went to St. Paul's Cathedral. I have been looking forward to this experience the entire time that I have been here. No one else wanted to tour the Cathedral itself; however, this actually provided me with an excellent opportunity. I am going to copy and paste my reflection on the Cathedral itself since it will provide the most insight.
Reflection upon St. Paul’s Cathedral
St. Paul’s Cathedral relates to the dome which, I believe, Wordsworth speaks of in his poem, “Composed upon Westminster Bridge, September 3, 1802.” I am not certain what my preconceived notions and expectations of this place were going to be; I had read the poem many times, it all appeared very literal to me. I knew that it was the site of the famous royal wedding between Prince Charles of Wales to Lady Diana Spencer, whom I loved. Other than that, I really cannot state that I could identify with much regarding the Cathedral itself. My expectations were high, and also, I felt that this was going to be a very religious place, much like Westminster Abbey. I visited Westminster Abbey several days prior to this, and stood in amazement at its beauty. I had also felt a spirit at the Abbey quite like none I had ever felt before; therefore, I expected to experience much of the same feeling again.
As I walked into the first site in London which I had gone by myself, I stood in awe. For the first time in thirteen days, I was alone and could experience each and every intricate detail of this beautiful place. This site appeared dissimilar from Westminster Abbey with its lighter interior, marble floors, and more modern (but still old) interior; nevertheless, that same spiritual feeling returned to me again. Perhaps it was because I was by myself, yet the feeling was stronger this time. It was very surreal walking through the Cathedral, listening to the audio. I stayed for the celebration of The Eucharist Service, which included the following: The Gathering, The Greeting, Prayer of Preparation, Prayers of Penitence Absolution; The Liturgy of the Word: Reading, Gospel Reading, Affirmation of Faith, Prayers of Intersession; The Liturgy of The Sacrament: The Peace, The Eucharistic Prayer, Breaking of the Bread, Invitation to Communion, as well as the Prayer after Communion. I partook of the communion; it was very different than I have ever experienced before. The church which I attend in my hometown, although not in a while, does not have this same feeling of spirituality in this way, for me. Perhaps, I am learning more about myself than I ever imagined, but I really felt that the priest was genuine. After the service concluded, I continued to tour the Cathedral. I noticed the High Altar, which was quite different than the Altar at Westminster Abbey. As I stood in the center of the Cathedral, I noticed the high dome and the colorful paintings whether on its ceiling, or around the upper galleries. I proceeded downstairs to The Crypt where many people that have gone before us are buried. It was also quite different than Westminster Abbey; it had a more intimate feeling with its candlelit interior, as well as the smaller worship areas. I noticed one particular man’s tombstone: Sir Edward John Poynter Bt, 1836 to 1919. There was a quotation at the bottom of the tombstone which read: “Whatever is worth doing is worth doing well.” I noted this information on my phone because it was worth remembering, I thought. Afterwards, I felt like a writer; therefore, I sat in the Crypt, among the dead, and wrote this reflection on my notebook paper. I was particularly inspired by the presence and spirit which the Cathedral brought me.
St. Paul’s Cathedral relates to my research because William Wordsworth reflects upon domes in his poem, “Composed upon Westminster Bridge, September 3, 1802.” He chose to reflect upon this view from Westminster Bridge, although, it was only a literal view that he mentions in the poem. The view that I think he meant was not literal, but spiritual, and figurative, as well. I began to connect the poems which I am studying, “Tintern Abbey,” as well as “Composed upon Westminster Bridge . . .,” in a way that had not been possible before for me. Could Wordsworth have felt this way as well? I am finding it difficult to leave his state of mind out of my research project, since it only complicates matters; however, since this is my own reflection, it becomes a very important aspect of the reflection process. I cannot feel, or even begin to imagine, what Wordsworth felt when he composed these two poems, yet the spirit of the place outweighs the literal by far. To me, the spirit of England reigns strong. Its high dome, which Wordsworth could probably clearly have seen from Westminster Bridge on that July day in 1802, and the fact that I was standing inside St. Paul’s Cathedral as well, soaking in the moment, with its paintings, its ornateness, gold, marble floors, and beautiful colorings, made this realization even clearer for me, and solidifies my thesis statement for my project. In his poems, he writes about tranquility and how these places brought him this in a time of unsettled peace. The spirit of England brought him that tranquility, and he glorifies it in his poem.
As I leave this place, St. Paul’s Cathedral, that is, I reflect upon the Eucharist Service, which I partook of, the communion, which I participated in, and the warm handshake, which the priest gave me. I see clearly now that William Wordsworth did not necessarily see those places as literal, reflecting upon its history; he only saw the tranquility which it brought him, and thus, it brings for me, as well.
Of course, this sounds more academic than this personal blog; however, it reflects upon how I felt and what I saw as well. I lit a candle, actually I paid to light it; it costs 30 pence. I only had 50 pence; so, I just dropped it in the slot, hoping that the extra 20 pence would help more; I felt that I needed it. My project is weighing me down. Wouldn't it be nice to be in the city and NOT have to do schoolwork? Of course it would, but I would probably not be here otherwise. So, okay, the schoolwork is fun as well (I keep reminding myself that it will be worth it soon.)
I wanted to go to Pizza Express, so when I left St. Paul's Cathedral, I walked across the street and went in. I sat by the window and watched people pass by; actually, there was a menu right there and people were stopping right in front of me; it was actually funny. The waiter was super nice; okay, he was cute as well. I ended up leaving him a 2 pound tip for an 11 pound eighty pence meal. I ordered the Romano pizza, which was a paper thin crust, with mozzarella, goat cheese, and tomato sauce. I really did not think that I could eat the whole thing, but I ate every slice but one...after tonight's meal in the dorm, I wish that I had saved that piece of pizza... I am a picky eater, as I have stated; I don't even like Pizza Hut. Now- Pizza Hut pretty much sucks. This place, oh my gosh, if pizza in Rome is this good, I can die now. Even the coke was good; they put lemon in it; I usually do not drink/eat lemon either, it ruins the enamel on your teeth, but I deserved a break from the rules. Yes, eating alone was awesome in the city. After writing in The Crypt, I had walked around to the gift shop and bought a souvenir guide, as well as a small book on The Temple Bar.
After my wonderful experience at Pizza Express, I proceeded to walk to find a Tube station. It was the first time that I had been in the city alone... I got out the map which I bought by Parliament on Monday. It is a much better map than the one I bought from Amazon (London A to Z). I can actually read this one. I found a tube station fairly easy... I had walked a bit too far up Cannon Street, but saw the store, Next, and remembered that we had been close to shopping earlier. I found the Circle Line Tube Station, followed the wonderful signs, and changed to Piccadilly Line to Russell Square. I am a Tube pro now.
Maybe... I am going to miss the Tube when I get home; I actually do not miss my Mustang at all; it is fun walking in the city and riding the Tube, well, except for 4 and 5 pm when you are all up next to whomever, all up close and personal, hanging from the bar, trying not to fall down. You must brace yourself on the Tube.
Back to Russell Square, where it is easy to find my way back home; did I just say home?
Wow. Actually, I've said it quite a bit, in my new British accent which I've developed. I've been practicing it a bit; it's alright; sorry. I think that I have said
sorry in that accent, probably, 200 times a day. It seems to be the word of choice in The Tube station. At least the Brits are nice about it; at home, people would not say,
sorry...
I stayed in my dorm tonight. I ate chilli downstairs with Jordan; it was way too spicy, so I really did not eat anything. They also served some sort of carrots. Where is my spaghetti noodles with butter and parmesan cheese at a time like this?
I have to get up in the morning at 4 am to go to Westminster Bridge. I want to be there around 6 am (gasp) for my project. Another adventure in the city alone...